Month one. Bulgaria.
Well it has definitely not started out the way I expected it to.
For months, almost a year really i have been mentally preparing myself for the worst conditions you can think of. I was ready mentally to go five days without bathing before not being cool with it or myself. Sleeping in places that most would cringe at and turn away from if giving the choice.
But that’s not what the first couple weeks brought. For two weeks we where housed and located in a tourist city by the beach called Varna. Did you catch that TOURIST city? BEACH? We also have most of the comforts here that we have back home in the States.
All I could think when walking the city the first week, if Im being honest…. Lol was “holy crap I feel like I’m back home in the States, but with a beautiful European twist to it”!!
Week one in Bulgaria we worked outside of Varna in a gypsy village, just investing time and love on the kids.
At the end of the week we went to some of the homes in this particular village to just pray over and talk with some of the gypsy family’s.
So that was the physical part of the week. Each one of my teammates found ourselves in a mental and spiritual battle and Monday night was the throw down.
We where up till after 2:00am in the morning praying and facing this stuff. At one point my team just felt the presence of God dwelling in the room with us, then I instantly felt a spirit of fear latch onto me and when my team mate asked me a question I couldn’t answer her, I felt really hot, clammy and couldn’t stop tears from just streaming down my face. I was starting to freak out inside and thinking that everyone around me was crazy. I went from the room everyone was in, into the very small kitchen. I just clasped on the floor and started pleading with Jesus to free me from this and my brother was just impressed on my heart so heavily, I started pleading for him and his life too. My team mate Nicole came into the kitchen to find me, because she was scared for me. We talked. And prayed and I just felt a peace and calm come over me, and a coolness.
So that was the start of a week that’d prove to be crazy! But crazy good.
At training camp we where told that for the first couple months we’d be on a high… What high???? There has been no high. I feel like me and my team has been put through the wringer over and over again!
So after our spiritual adventure, me and two other team mates got slightly molested by two boys in a village we where ministering at.
In this village we where doing work at the church there. Its an old builden that needs LOTS of work and repair. The little yard behind the church was completely over grown and had the brick remains of an old building that use to stand back.
My team and I cleaned up the ruines, racked and weeded the back yard. At our lunch break a family from the village came to the church asking for prayer for their deef and mute son. We surrounded the boy and his family and prayed over them. But the father kept talking. He kept repeating how he believed that the reason his son could not speak or talk was because of his sins. Because he has no work and can’t provide for his family, he drinks a lot everyday in hopes that it will kill him. Absolutely heart recking.
My team kept asking if we could pray for him. Pray that he would be free from the chains that bind his life. But he continued to refuse prayer for himself and asked only that we’d pray over his boy and house.
At this point our contacts at this church we where working with asked if he’d like to take us to his home so we could pray over it and his family. He enthusiastically said yes! So we walked with him and his family to their two bedroom, fly invested, achole stanched home.
Before entering the house, Andrea, one of our contacts here, whispered to us girls to be aware, alert and watchful of our selves and each other because the boys here at this home have been known to grab and get very physical with girls, especially foreign ones.
The warning was great, but immediately upon entering one of the boy’s grabbed my team leader Amy and pulled her into a tight hug while rubbing his hands all over her chest. Fortunately it did not last long because a other team mate, Jessica, saw what was happening and pulled her away. After a little while I felt things getting tense and just the absolute reality and sadness of this place and these lives was hitting me hard. My team mate Nikole pulled me outside and asked if I was okey… I lied and said “yeah..” but she knew and we talked a little. That conversation was cut short because we where soon joined outside by the older teenage boys of this house. They started telling us that we where very pretty and beautiful, then one of the boys reached and sort of caressed my ear. I stepped away, and things got uncomfortable real fast. They started making gestures with their hands, running them up and down their body’s insinuating that we where beautiful. Me and Nikole decided this was starting to go to a place we didn’t want to be at, so we decided that we where going to try to get back into the house and join the other members of our team again.

