I wanted to write this blog about how I was feeling during the events of Launch before we left for the World Race. Truthfully I don’t think I even knew what I was feeling those four days.
We prayed together, We worshiped our Father and gave thanks for what was about to happen for the next 11 months. We hung on to our family members as long as we could. I don’t think a single bit of it hit me until the last night of worship. One of my squad leaders, Carly, gave me some prophetic words that had been given to me just a few hours before by someone else (but this is another blog for another day). After sitting in this moment it all hit me, but just for a split second. I felt so much pressure weighing on my chest. What if I’m not good enough for the world? What if I can’t lead people to the cross? There are those lies again! After this mild breakdown I went back to having no idea how I felt about what was about to go down.
After no sleep, a 1 am call time, two plane rides, a sickening but beautiful car ride, and the most wonderful meal prepped by our new host family in Honduras:
I woke up and was at my first day of ministry and I was stoked! After another A-mazing meal, we were asked to help out with the children; Possibly do some bible stories, skits, sing songs, and so on. For the most part today was to learn the ropes and what it will look like the next few weeks. This was so much in my element and yet I was so far out of my element.
I. WAS. SO. OVERWHELMED.
I am the worst at learning new languages and I honestly think this will be the easiest of all the hard ones to learn. I think what was so overwhelming was that I wanted so badly to understand and communicate with the kids. I feel like it’s so frustrating for them when they are so eager to talk to us. What I’ve taken from all of this so far is that language barriers can’t stop the Lord. Music is universal. Love is universal. Serving is universal. And our Father is the same.
At the end of the day I still don’t really know what I’m feeling in this moment, but I do know that the Lord is still going to get things done. I am still His vessel, whether I’ve got it all figured out or not, He is going to move mountains through me.
