I’ve been home for a week now and I’m still processing the amazing two weeks of Training Camp! They pushed us, they poured into us, they prepared us, and they starved us (just kidding chopsticks are hard…).
There are so many things I could say about this experience and I’m sure I will at some point, but today I wanted to share my heart. I think we all have a few things that we would like to keep locked up and never touch because we know if they come up we have to face them. One of them came up for me after the second team building exercise. I was doing my debrief with the same questions that were asked the first round. I still couldn’t answer the question “what do you bring to this team?”. I had all the answers for the amazing people I was paired with, but had no clue what I brought to the table.
This is the first of many lessons God revealed to me in those two weeks.
I learned through quiet time and worship that I dig in my word and ask questions, but never stop to listen to His answer. I never stop to listen to who He says I am. It took three people I haven’t even known a week to teach me that I should listen to my Father’s truths rather than my own lies. They spoke so much life into me and showed me exactly what I bring to the table. They wanted to learn from me as much as I want to learn from them.
This brings me to the second thing that God revealed to me in those two weeks; COMMUNITY.
We went out to evangelize one afternoon as a team and I found myself very discouraged afterward by how many fellow believers turned down prayer. But how many times have I been given encouraging words and prayer that I choose not to receive? (Literally just this week and ALL through training camp) That’s not how we should be living in community with others. God places people in our lives for a purpose and I haven’t been letting those people in. Sometimes we are the one that needs encouragement and community is there for just that. These past two weeks I’ve learned to share with others so that they can hold me accountable and love me when I need it the most. I love to give, but I want to start receiving!
Did I reach complete freedom from these things? No, but that’s the last lesson I learned! Sometimes we don’t have instant and total healing. I think that each time we choose freedom instead of death we are one step closer. Like peeling off layers of an onion we are making our way to freedom each time we choose to face it.
So I want to challenge you, the reader, to love yourself like Christ loves you. Take time to work on being the best you can be, but have grace for yourself when you mess up because we all do. Surround yourself with people that speak truth and love into you!
Q Squad
Team Half ‘n’ Half
I can’t wait to do life with these incredible people next year! Q squad definitely lives and loves; lives for Jesus and loves to sleep!
