The Lord keeps on reminding me of his jealousy for me. Whether it is in the song O How He loves Us by Kim Walker (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JoC1ec-lYps) or in Deuteronomy when he says “For the Lord is a consuming fire, a jealous God.” (4:24) The theme just keeps on coming up. It makes me think about my heart and what in my heart is the Lord jealous of. What am I giving myself and my heart to that’s not him. And it makes me want to live a life where God doesn’t have anything to be jealous of because I am pursuing him with my whole heart and my whole soul (Deut 4:29 – 31).
I think that He’s been jealous of some of the ways that I pursue relationships with both men and women, he’s been jealous of the way I pursue my job and being “good.” He’s jealous of the pride and confidence that I find in myself and not in him (boasting in myself and not in Him {Phil 3:7-9 “But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which through faith in Christ – the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.”}) as well as my worth which I have found in other people.
God wants all of me. He will bless me immensely if I give that to him. Then why am I so selfish not to give my all? God is pursuing me, He meets me half way. His jealousy is not like ours – it doesn’t cause Him to be different or be suspicious – it’s just because he loves us, so much!
