I remember this time last year I had just had a big break up and had applied for an internship in Haiti. If you would have asked me last year, I was a 110% sure that I was meant to be in Haiti. Deep down I just wanted to get away, and run away from the pain instead of deal with it.
Run, hide and ignore the hurt.
God had other plans though.
There I was, starting my “waiting” journey.
Long term missions has always been a desire on my heart, so I felt lost and confused when I got denied from that internship.
Through the journey I learned waiting is not a bad thing, some times we get so caught up in getting to our destination we forget to embrace the journey around us. We get tunnel vision and forget that we need to learn and grow in order to be a better version of ourselves before we get to where God is leading us. We often forget we need to deal with the hurt and pain in front of us before we can move on from it.
I don’t know about you, but I do not like waiting for anything! I want what I want and I want it now, so that has been a big lesson for me.
Waiting.
Waiting in traffic.
Waiting in a fast food line (that I should be in and out of, because it’s fast food! right?).
Waiting for my healing.
Waiting for an apology.
Waiting for, you fill in the blank.
I have learned that there is beauty in the journey, and in the waiting.
Welcome your journey with open arms, and stop just focusing on the destination.
One thing I have carried with me this whole journey is that God is in our waiting.
Embrace the waiting.
One year later, and I’m patiently waiting to embark on a crazy amazing adventure with fellow Believers to Thailand and Cambodia!
God gives you deep desires, He sets you on fire for certain people, social injustices, etc. Trust Him.
In Christ,
Cierra.
