I am new to this blog thing. So bear with me. I have also been putting this off for the past 2 weeks. Because lets be real, writing about how you feel and how your daily life is looking, can be really hard. Especially if you are being completely honest.
I had to call my brother. He is this amazing writer, that is truly the definition of what it means to be fearless. He is wise with words and is honestly one of the best supporters, I have the privilege of calling my brother. I asked him “How do I use a blog??” and “What in the world am I suppose to write about?” to which he replied..
“When I write one of my plays, I always pray to God to help me see what I need to write about. Also my writing reflects what season I am in; what I am trying to overcome. An within that I find healing. It is a way God is healing me.”
Ya’ll can see why I went to my brother about this topic.
SO..when I first found out that I got accepted into The World Race (global outreach trip for 11 months;helping those in need, while spreading the love of Jesus), I was beyond blessed. I was so excited to see what God had in store for me. I felt like nothing could stop me, I felt so strong and confident in my faith. But..as the days slowly came creeping around the corner. After talking to my adviser about fundraising, after talking to people around me about how the countries I am going to are dangerous (Honduras, Costa Rica, Panama, Indonesia, Vietnam, Cambodia, Thailand, Botswana, Swaziland, Lesotho, South Africa), and after being reminded that its only 7 months away…I started to have doubts. The fire and passion started to die down. This fear started to hover over the relationship I have with God.
I am sure we have all been there at some point. Whether that be with a relationship with God or you feel super-duper (yes I said super-duper) strong feelings about something/someone. I believe it is okay to feel that way at times, its like a test. Are we going to let fear dictate the way we see things? OR are we going to throw that fear to the wind and let it care it far away?
I don’t know about you, but I definitely choose the second option. The path God has me on, is not going to be easy. I am confident.
“This is God’s Word on the subject: “As soon as Babylon’s seventy years are up and not a day before, I’ll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.”
-Jeremiah 29:11 (MSG)
