God…What in blue blazes were you thinking??
Bringing together a group of people who are so different, so strong-willed, so CRAZY!!
From one end of the spectrum to another, we should be fighting because of the differences.
You gave me a strong voice. You gave others timidity.
You gave me aggressive passion to go after every heart, but I've recognized something.
I NEVER take time for me. I HATE taking time for me! I want to do so much for others and take nothing for myself.
But I've got to. I'm emptying myself into others and leaving no breath, no blood, no tears for ME!
Selfish? No way.
Jesus took time in the wilderness for Himself. I've got to follow the instructions on the box or I'm going to burn the pizza.
I'm burned out! I've run into the wall! Hit my head on the floor of the deep end! I can't go any further without completely draining myself of myself…
So I took time to pray for people at camp this past week. I took time to lay hands of healing on people. I took time to prophecy over others. I changed a tire, carried everyone's bags I could get my hands on, refilled water bottles, got seconds for others on fishy rice water sludge (okay that part is a joke). But seriously…I was going non-stop doing for others that I failed to do some things for me.
At times when I should have probably just sat still and listened to God's voice during worship, I was up praying for every individual I could get my hands on because my hands were hot as Hell and I felt that was God's way of telling me I was supposed to be laying hands on people and praying for everyone except myself.
I swear I refilled the Gatorade coolers with water about a dozen times because I recognized it was hot as Hell outside and people needed hydration or they would probably pass out from a heat stroke. I felt I needed to meet that need for others. Don't get me wrong…I'm glad I did. God has given me a servant's heart.
So this blog is coming in three parts just so you know…God is cooler than a baby penguin's butt on a block of ice. The next blog explains why. He knew exactly what I needed this past week and He made it happen. Let's do this. So here's my number…call me maybe.
