Today is just one of those days. It started off amazing…so what's the deal??
I feel like I could scream! I am so tired of these low points! Is this what every month will look like? Are they going to get worse?
I don't feel like blogging! I don't feel like writing any letters or postcards! I don't feel like talking to my team leader about what's going on with me! Cause I don't KNOW!!
AARRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I picture the creatures from "Where the Wild Things Are." Screaming and running around like crazy animals breaking things and smacking each other.
I hit a bunch of nails on the head today and it felt great! I beat the dust out of a shop vac filter and THAT felt great! I threw apples that had fallen on the ground from the trees at the fence so hard they became applesauce and THAT felt great!
I think maybe I feel threatened by this community I've come to live in and consider family being overrun by the team that just arrived here today. I think maybe the reality is setting in that we are leaving the comfort of this amazing home and the love of this amazing family. I think maybe my team feels like it's not moving fast enough in the direction I had felt God was leading us in.
I don't really know.
It just makes me feel a little better to get this written out.
This is not meant to offend anyone. I love the team that arrived today. I love my team. I'm excited about Moldova and the countries to come. I'm just in a weird state this evening. It's not the enemy, but then again I guess it is, because it's not of God.
Let's be real. We all have days/moments like this. Maybe my love tank needs some fuel. Some affirmation.
Why am I special to you? How has God used me to impact your life?
Psalm 34:18 – "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
