This is mostly a letter to my squad. But I still wanted to let everyone see it, so they can be praying for me about this.
It comes from a struggle that has been part of my life recently; but all that you really need to know about it is that I don’t have many friends to say goodbye to when I launch. I struggled with this a lot and wrote a very long paper with all my feelings about it. And one day maybe I’ll put it up as a blog but as of now here is just the end of it.
To my squad mates, I know that I’m not the easiest person to get to know but if you try I will try to be your friend to the best of my ability, while I’m a shy one of the group I do want to know you and your heart for Christ. I want to be a friend that you can lean on; a friend that is always there for you. A friend long after the Race. I can see us being there for all the big moments of each other’s lives. I will try my best to tear down my own walls to let everyone in. Just please take the time to get to know me, that is all I ask.
To the men of L squad,
If I have a hard time opening up and being friends with you more than the women on the squad. Please I pray keep trying to be my friend I need it even if I come across as like I don’t. I just have an easier time connecting with women, I think cause I’m less focused on trying to impress or be accepted by them as I am with men.
To my team,
I will do all that I can to let go of all my past; to just be here in the moment. Please call me out when I am not doing that. I will try my hardest to change it when I am told about it. Please call me out on all things when you notice them happening rather than waiting till later, it helps me process and get to a point of fixing it quicker.
I also pray that God will work all of this out of me over the next year. And give us all friends in plenty.
