The excitment on my team is probably a 15 on a scale of 1-10. I would have left last week if I had all $15k. Like really. This might sound weird but God turns up in the coolest places when it comes to money. I've never really asked Him to bless me financially but I'm not even asking for it these days. I'm jumping ahead and already thanking Him for provididing it because I know without a shadow of a doubt that all the money will come. There is no stress on this side of the computer screen, like zero. Phew.
Over the years I've become more and more laid back. I've realized freaking out and trying to control life just gives me a headache and a super bad mood. When I was in kindgarten, I thought I knew a lot more than my teacher, Mrs. vanDentop. I'd voice my opinion quite regularly, making sure she knew I had tabs on the class. One day as I was getting ready for gymnastics, my mom came to talk to me. Obviously Mrs. vDT had an issue with a 5 year old running the show…Mom sat down and said, "Christin, Mrs. vanDentop called this afternoon and said you've been really bossy lately." Before she could get in another word, I stood up indignantly, put my tiny fists on my hips and matter of factly inquired, "What! How did she get your number?" I guess in my mind, I wanted to know how the lady could have outside access to me! I mean who wouldnt want a snotty nosed kid telling them how to teach? Sheesh, moms and teachers in the 90s. Needless to say, I've learned that people don't necessarily care or want my opinion and trying to control stuff that's out of my control is futile. I'm ok with that.
Back to the update. I've been doing some parttime work in a sweat shop oops I mean warehouse. We fold clothes and trim embroidery. It's exhausting, hot and I typically find my peppy self not feeling the 'pep' when I arrive each morning at 7:30. If you got a shirt at Bonaroo, you're welcome, we folded those bad boys. Yesterday, one of my fellow amigos asked when I graduated high school. I said '05. The whole shipping department stopped and he said, "Wow, I had no idea you were thattt old." So yeah, work is a trip and a dose of humble pie. But it's helped pay for immunizations, my backpacking gear and some other stuff so in the grand scheme of things, I think I'll thank God for the job and just go with it.
Speaking of which, I'm still releasing all expectations I have for D-day (September 2012!!) It's an interesting process. The control side wants to be sure I'm be prepared (Whatever prepared even means these days..) And Jesus keeps saying, "Pump those breaks, sister. You have no idea what I have planned so take it day by day and breathe." So that's what I'm doing. I'm taking each day as it comes, savoring the blessings He continues tossing my way and basking in His love.
Have a great week!
