Ahhh…Easter. My favorite holiday.
Pretty bittersweet this year. First holiday without Penny, which is pretty tough. Actually, this previous week was tough…food poisoning didn’t help! I kept thinking about it all week. Kept dreading today until today got here. Well, more last night.
I hung out with a friend last night because we were both in a “funk,” as she put it, and two funky stuck people always cheer each other up…well we do anyway! As I was heading home from her house I began to think about Easter and what it means and Penny not being here. And then it hit me. How cool would it be to celebrate Easter in heaven? I had never thought about this before! This new thought was revolutionary to me, and it immediately sent me in this whirl wind of thought of what Penny and Hayleigh are doing right now.
How does one celebrate Easter in Heaven?
Are there eggs…even the cheesy Resurrection eggs?
IS THERE CHOCOLATE???
The thought of Penny and Hayleigh actually being able to celebrate Easter with our risen Lord pretty much cheered me up right then and there. It also caused me to be incredibly, incredibly jealous of her as I sat through the same Easter worship songs and sermon as I hear pretty much every year. No harm intended to my church family. It also got me through the rest of the day as we spent it with some incredibly fun family out in the middle of nowhere Texas. I’m jealous…very jealous!
And this got me thinking along another line of thought…have I finally allowed myself to feel the pain enough to where I’m at a point where healing can begin? It feels like it. It feels like a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I can finally breathe again for the first time in almost two months. Maybe so, but that’s some more thought for another post.
