I don’t know how often this happens or if it really happens at all, but before going on the Race I knew that I would be going home for 5 days for my sister’s wedding and then going back on the Race.
To be honest. If I didn’t have to leave the Race at all, that would be ideal. When I signed up for the Race I had every intention of finishing the 11 months in full and not worrying or thinking about home until the Race was over. Now, I’m going home tomorrow and I have mixed feelings.
On one hand I’m a little excited, I mean there is so much at home that I’ve missed and I do like weddings. On the other hand I’m a little sad that I’m not with my team and have been in limbo these last 5 or so days as a member of another team and kind of bummed that in a way I’m losing out somehow on the full Race experience.
I think part of it is I’m not ready to be home even though it is only for a couple of days, I’m not ready. I haven’t had enough time to process and I can’t hide from people when I’m home. Being home for a couple of days will give me a glimpse of what home will be like when I am officially home though so in a way it’ll be good, but the Race isn’t over so I still need to stay focused…
I am thankful though that everyone has been super supportive of me going home for a couple of days and willing to work their schedules around my schedule. I love my squad and I will miss them for the couple of days that I am home. I do love my family though and am grateful that I can be part of such a momentous occasion. I guess overall I am learning to adapt quickly to all circumstances and getting an idea of what it’ll feel like going home even if temporarily.
For future racers though if it is possible to not interrupt the Race for any reason then I would recommend that. Limbo where I am on the Race, but at home and where I’m at home, but not for very long because I’m still going back on the Race is a weird place to be.
