DSCI0031The past week had been hard for me because I’ve had to play a behind the scene role when many of the “cool” things happened with other people on my team and squad. I’ve had to take background roles as more of a helper than to be the one on the spotlight claiming every result and success. I was comparing myself to others and had feelings of jealousy erupt. I often had to reason myself into changing my negative emotions.

The truth is it doesn’t really matter who gets the credit or thanks for the result because a changed life is more than enough to be thankful.

The truth is every good change and every transformed life is a team victory and a celebration of each other’s effort as co-laborers with God.

And thank goodness I’m learning to surrender the need to be the best at everything, to be the perfectionist, and to be involved in everything. I was suffering from FOMO or fear of missing out.

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God has been speaking to me about teamwork. In 1 Cor. 12:25-26, it says “The way God designed our bodies is a model for understanding our lives together as a church: every part dependent on every other part, the parts we mention and the parts we don’t, the parts we see and the parts we don’t.” You and I are as vital as the eye or ear is to the body. Winning teams are composed of players that each compete in such a way as to gain a team victory, regardless of whether the player is the star for that game or not. My teammates depends on each other. I depend on you.

Jealousy and comparison comes because I’ve stop valuing both my own worth and my teammate’s worth to the bigger picture. It is a selfish emotion that plants the seeds of division in the heart. God is revealing to me that if I am already able to identify the very best in others, rather than choose to be jealous, I can choose to love them by nurturing their greatness and celebrating in the team successes.

Love is not self seeking. When I choose love, my entire perspective shifts. I become in awe of how God has uniquely fashioned each person to do such great things. Question is, how can I be a greater supporter to them?

My wonderful supporters, my cheerleaders, my friends, my brothers and sisters- that is what they have been to me.