While I was at the airport, I really didn’t cry nor was I affected by a huge rush of emotions. It finally caught up to me I guess as I’ve been irrationally emotional for a couple of days. I feel disconnected to where I now call home because I’ve missed out on so much that has happened in others’ lives that I need to catch up and relearn things just to keep up with the present. Additionally, in terms of what to do in the future, I thought I had a focus at first, but I had to sort through how to reconcile my experiences around the world with what I can do now. I already knew logically that I can’t meet every need in the world, but in my heart, I figured that perhaps if I managed my time well enough- perhaps I really could. This is got me switching from one idea to another idea about what to do next. Frederick Buechner had said that your mission in life is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet.
