I'm so annoyed with God.
We had squad-wide worship last night and the Holy Spirit fell and moved in power and joy. People were speaking in tongues and Holy Spirit giggles were breaking out all over the place. It was awesome to watch and enjoy.
However, God had been silent with me all day yesterday. Three hours of sitting with Him in the morning, and I got nothing. More time sitting with Him during squad worship, and I got nothing. Once He asked me to do something and release a few words to people, but as soon as I finished He was once again silent.
I was annoyed.
And as I sat and pouted, He asked me if I only loved Him for His revelation. He asked if I loved the manifestations of God or His characteristics more than Him. What if I never received another vision or another prophecy? Would I still love Him? Would I still seek Him?
Once again, the Lord has asked me to lay down the things I've honored above Him. So many times it's been the experience of the World Race, now it is the gifts of the Spirit.
"Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away." 1 Corinthians 13:8-10
I want to know God in His fullness. I can't even comprehend what that really means, but it's on my heart to seek it.
The Father told me it's time to learn a new way to listen. I liked the way I've been listening so far! It's been good, it's been so sweet, it was working just fine! But He's said it's time to move forward and learn a new way.
I am willing to follow wherever You lead (even if I am annoyed by change). Who am I to limit a move of God? Here I am, Lord.
