When I stumbled off the train yesterday morning, my body was about ready to give up. It was screaming at me saying “let me rest! let me be restored!”
All my flesh wanted was clean water, clean clothes, hot showers, to get my 46 pound pack off of my back, to lay in a bed that wasn’t on the ground. All my soul wanted was quiet time, to crack open my bible, to talk and cry out to God, and to process last month.
What I got was a continuation of the Great Love Affair I’m having. Have I told you lately about this love? It’s truly romantic! He’s there every time I need him. He makes me feel so good! He restores me and serves me and showers me with blessings that I don’t even feel like I deserve or feel worthy of. He’s always there! He never leaves me. He’s sooooo loving!!!!
So, you guessed it, God is my love affair. He’s the only thing I need, that I’ll ever need. He’ll take care of me. I see Him in everything. I see Him and feel Him in worship. Take tonight for example, as I was worshipping one of my beautiful squadmates Lydia was dancing with flags and I was thinking “yup, that right there is God’s work”. Only God could make people, things, etc beautiful like He can.
So what did God bless my flesh with this month? Yes, everything that I just complained about wanting. I don’t even have to look at my pack this month because it’s completely unpacked and hidden so I never have to see that wretched orange thing. God gave me a washer and sweet sunshine to dry my clothes, He gave me candy on my bunk bed to arrive to, He gave me hot showers, He gave me endless supplies of clean water, worship sessions that have my heart racing and wanting more.
He quenched my soul with time with Him. I have opened my bible more times in 2 days here at BethEl than I did the entire first month. I was so busy and tired in Ireland that the only time I had to open my bible was in worship. I had to fight for alone time and personal space. Here at the BethEl house with the Blessing Family, I wake up in the mornings, saunter down stairs, open my bible on a window seat in the sunshine and drink my coffee with my bible and highlighter in hand. I feel so at peace here. I feel loved, rejuvenated, on fire for the Lord. It’s so quiet here. You never would think that 21 people are under one roof. I’m in love here. I’m in love with my romance with God. I’m in love with who I’m serving with this month.
This house, this ministry, this family, these people make my heart smile. I feel like I’ve been here for weeks and it’s only day 2. Last month I felt like I had nothing to say about ministry, this month I feel like I won’t be able to stop writing.
Tomorrow I’ll include some pictures from what our day was like today plus what ministry actually looks like for this month.
Blessings!
