The trip is coming up quickly! And God has been moving in my life in a big way.
I was reminded recently, as I was talking with my mentor that when you give something to God, you actually have to DO something. Until you actually take some form of action, it's just an exercise in intellectual thought. It'd be like me telling you, "Hey, I am going to give you $100. I have $100 for you! And hey- that $100, it's yours!" But I never actually hand it to you. It's a nice thought but… no dice.
Since the beginning, when this whole World Race endeavor took root in my brain, I have given the trip — these upcoming 11 months and everything that comes with them — to God. I knew from the beginning that there was no way I would every figure out how to do this thing on my own, it would be virtually impossible, so I gave it to God from Day 1. I said, "God, if you want me to do this. You are going to have to work out the deets. I will put forth all the enthusiasm and excitement I can… and I will actually GO… but as far as all the rest of this stuff — fundraising, packing, getting my parents' & loved ones' buy-in — well God, that's ALL You."
Now some of you might think, 'Wow. What I leap of faith!' Yeah. I guess.
But as I am sure you have found in your own life, it's MUCH easier to give God something in the future (aka: God, have your will be done in my life) than it is to give God something in the NOW (aka: God, what would you have me do today, with this moment?)
So it wasn't until last week that I realized I had given God this 11 month adventure, but I was hanging on with white knuckels to these last 3 months! I was constantly mulling: "How am I going to make the money that I'll need to live on btw now and July, gas prices are getting so high & my jeep has the fuel efficiency of a tanker…how am I going to close some of these accounts at work that I keep chasing around?…how am I going to pay off this credit card that I have?…how am I going to find the time & the money to find all the right gear that I'll need for this trip?…how am I going to find the right ppl to 'replace' me in all my leadership positions in iGen, Rotaract, my girls group, etc…how am I going to depart in July actually READY for this thing?" Yeah. That's what the internal monologue sounded like. Doesn't sound like trust does it? Well, it didn't feel like it either.
So I put my foot down. I handed him the $100. I actualy DID something besides the intellectual exercise of telling Him 'It's yours, God'. And you know what? He's coming through! Little by little things are piecing themselves together, opportunities are arising, the money is coming in. And I am going to be more than OK. But it took DOING something. Making a change.
Stepping out is called 'stepping out' because you actually have to take a step – an action. So yeah, nailing "These Last 3 Months" onto the cross on Palm Sunday last week felt good, but actually talking through a few difficult conversations was what really needed to happen. These last 3 months? They are HIS. Today, tomorrow, the next day.
My World Race has started!
