“In the face!” were the words I heard when I face planted on the second day of training camp in front of my entire team! I died..
Great first impression right?
Well maybe not, but it sure did break the ice aaaaannnnnd almost broke my face!
Break: to smash, split, divide into parts violently; reduce to pieces or fragment;
to put an end to; overcome; stop.
Hmmm to break. Ponder that for a minute. What comes to mind when you think about breaking emotionally? Fear. Vulnerability. Insecurity. Maybe you have that knot in your throat that rises to convince yourself that you're “OK”. The knot that tells you to keep it together because there's no room for weakness.
Or maybe you know you're broken but don't know how to deal with “it”.
What is your “it”?
Have your dreams been smashed by someone's opinion? Has your family been divided by divorce or death? Has someone reduced you to pieces and made you feel worthless?
What wounds do you have from past experiences?
I'll share my “it” with you. I sought the approval of others, I felt insecure, unworthy, shamed, bitter, angry, prideful and jealous to name a few.
God was asking to heal me and for the longest time I refused. I thought I could do it on my own. MAN WAS I WRONG! I allowed the enemy to steal my mind, my voice and my identity in Christ.
The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy. John 10:10
BUT
1 Peter 5: 10 says…
And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.
When you allow God to come into your deepest hurts, He can go into your wound and start to clean it. It may not feel good at first just like cleaning out a cut with alcohol, it hurts, but with the pain comes healing. You can't properly heal until You let Him in.
I finally let Him in 🙂
God smashed the lies of the enemy and He shattered the image satan created in my brain.
God destroyed me to restore me. HE STOPPED THE ENEMY! Because of God I overcame! And the week of training camp I became an overcomer!!
God destroyed me to help me see that I am His precious daughter who He adores and loves with His entire being.
This was one of the most painful experiences of my life but it has been one of the best.
“In. The. Face!” Were the words I heard from the Holy Spirit when I face planted before God. 🙂
