Well. Technology hasn’t exactly been at my fingertips for the last month, and with my recent graduation right before I left, I pretty much have boycotted any Microsoft Word document that has require me to write. But alas the time has come to put life to paper.
Since being in Honduras, I’ve been sitting for days trying to put words to what I am seeing and experiencing. And for days those words have eluded me. Maybe if you heard the groan of my spirit you would understand. I am going to be real y’all. This is rough. My body is covered in mosquito bites. Half the team has been sick with Lord knows what. I can’t understand a word anybody is saying to me. I am emotionally, spiritually, and physically drained of energy all the time. If it is possible, I am dealing with worse temperamental weather changes than in Texas, and the variety in my diet consists of whole beans verses refried beans. Not to mention Satan and the turmoil that he’s been causing. I could sit here and say that I am flourishing but that would be a lie. Every morning, I wake up covered in more mosquito bites and say to the Lord, show me the worth of this sacrifice, and every single day He overwhelms me with the answer to that very request. I see dusty streets full of life and culture. I see a community that is deepened and unified by the efforts of a thriving ministry. The Lord shows me that what makes scratching my swollen arms and legs worth it is when sweet little Alejandro plops down in my lap and says I love you or when a single mother of 4 who’s husband was just murdered gets excited and teary eyed because the gringos (white people) come to visit her for the day.
What makes a freezing cold bucket bath on a rainy day worth it? Playing and laughing for hours with Davy, the little Down-syndrome boy down the street.
What makes a restless night full of weird sounds, cooing roosters, and party music bearable? Seeing a family come to know Christ just by the power of a prayer.
This is the sacrifice of love. Of seeing different tangible expressions of the kingdom of God. Sacrifice that brings the most magnificent displays of His glory. Sacrifice that comes with bringing down the kingdom to the poor, and to the hungry, and to the least of these.
