I got wrecked today… This afternoon I took some alone time sitting on the best rock with one of the most beautiful views I’ve ever seen in my life at the El Shaddai orphanage in Swaziland. I tried to journal… but wasn’t so successful. I tried reading my Bible… but my mind kept wandering. So I decided to take advantage of the beauty and alone time and to treat it like my favorite Young Life camp Pioneer Plunge solo. It was so good to just sit and rest, and I have to admit I was sitting with hope and expectation of hearing from God or having some sort of moment with Him. Well, it started to rain… Being honest I was a little bit discouraged….
Well, chapel started at 5:30 with all the kids so I made my way up there. Standing in the front of the room were 7 beautiful girls and they sang a song that completely wrecked me. Looking at them I felt such a deep compassion that I have never experienced before. I found myself looking at them wondering what their stories were… How long had they been at the orphanage… What happened to their parents… Were they ever hurt or abused…? No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t stop the tears from streaming down my face when I heard them sing in the most beautiful harmony, “Yes Lord”.
“I’ll say yes Lord yes
To your will and to your way
I will say yes Lord yes
I will trust you and obey
When your spirit speaks to me
While my whole heart I’ll agree
And my answer will be yes Lord yes.”
Who knows what these girls have been through, but here they are, singing so beautifully, with such passion and grace, saying yes to the Lord and whatever He has in store for them.
It’s funny how you travel all around the world wanting to make a difference, wanting to serve, to help, to bless others, when really you’re the one who is blessed. You’re the one who is forever changed.
I’m at the half way point of my race (which is so hard to believe its been 6 months!) and I find my mind wandering at times… What am I going to do when I get home? What’s it going to look like? These girls taught me the best lesson of all… To listen to God, to trust and obey, and to simply just say yes.
Needless to say, I got wrecked…
