Can I be honest with you...? My heart is starting to break... Even though we have 11 days left in the Philippines I'm so anxious about leaving... The reason why I didn't want to go on the world race is haunting my mind. Before coming on this trip I was so nervous about having to leave people that you form relationships with, love, and pray for 11 times. And now leaving these orphans we have been living with is just tearing me apart. They have had so many people come in and out of theirs lives and I hate that I am one more person adding to that.
But I have to remind myself the reason why I did come on The World Race, and that is to love the people of the nation's and share with them God's love. It has been such an honor and privilge to love these chidlren, hold these children, make them laugh and smile, and to pray over them this month.
Me being my crazy Young Life self. Friday night carnical we put on for the kids which was such a blast! So cool to set up different games and events for the kids to play, to see them laugh, dance, and just be kids! Looking at this picture I guess I'm a big kid myself...
This week we had the opportunity to be a part of these kids lives at their school. We were able to fill the role of a cheering, supportive, camera happy parent at their school intramural competitions. I can't imagine going to school as an orphan. I wonder what it's like for orphans when their classmates have parents who pick them up, attend school events, and help the with their home work when they get home. I can't imagine it... The excitement on their faces when we came to watch their events, cheer them on, and take their pictures was a moment that I'll never forget. Every child wants to be noticed, watched, and told they did a good job, and it was such an honor and privilege to play that role for them this week.
The kids school internural event!
I have come to a point where I don't want to go through the motions anymore. I want to be fully alive, take advantage of every experience and situation, experience God and His love in a way I've never known, and have a boldness and courage that no longer holds me back.
My theme song has been "Holding Nothing Back" By Will Reagan and The United Pursuit.
"I lean not on my own understanding.
My life is in the hands of the maker of heaven.
I give it all to you God, trusting that you'll make something beautiful out of me.
I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open.
There's nothing I hold onto.
I know that I can trust you."
I'm just desiring for God to make something beautilful out of me. To press in so much to God and hear His heart beat for me and His children. How cool to hear God's heart beat and to be in sync with His heart beat. And I am so thankful that I can trust Him. This is the start of an incredible journey and I am so thankful for what God has shown me so far and I can't wait to experience more of Him and more of the world. Thank you for your continued prayers!
