If I’m being honest…
I’ve hit a wall.
I’m in the B zone…downhill.
Traveling is exhausting.
Leading has been a challenge.
I’m ready for and in need of a break.
Listening to God can be harder to explain than I’d like it to be.
Carrying burdens that aren’t mine to carry is exhausting.
It isn’t always roses and sunshine on this trip.
Some nights you don’t sleep because you’re sweating and trying to convince yourself there aren’t any bed bugs in the sketchy hostel.
Living in close quarters isn’t always a fun girl sleepover.
I’m missing home and the comforts of home.
Some days I just want to hide in the corner and cry.
But also, if I’m being honest…
God shows up in all those moments…if I call on Him.
He is that still small voice that I hear saying “come sit with me for a little while and rest.”
The love notes and reassurances He sends me are absolutely perfect.
He takes the load off me when I’m ready to give it back to Him.
The peace that God gives is unlike anything that I have ever experienced…it is fantastically anxiety-shattering and mind blowing.
Even in the storms that He does not calm, I know my God is right there beside me.
If I’m being honest…I know that I am exactly where God wants me for this moment in time.
If I’m being honest…I know that in my weakness, I rely on His strength.
Oh and I am…by the way…being honest!
This song, Come to Me by Bethel, has helped remind me during those honest moments of frustration and desperation…of who I need to run and talk to. Google it…good stuff.
