A couple nights ago we shared our first communion as a team. Afterward we had time for personal prayer and reflection and worship. During this time I felt God telling me that I needed to ask for prayer for myself. This is something I never do and don’t really like doing. Now I know that sounds absolutely ridiculous, but for those of you who know me, you know I’m very stubborn and independent (thanks Dad 🙂 ). So asking people to pray for me means that I can’t handle or solve something by myself. Again, it’s crazy, I realize this, but it’s how I am. I’m telling people everyday how we need to turn to God in prayer and how we’re not meant to do anything on our own but for some reason exclude myself from all of this. I’ve had back problems for as long as I can remember and frequently visit a chiropractor to help with this problem. Well as you can probably guess, 5 months without a chiropractor equals a really messed up back and neck, which leads to migraine headaches. I’ve been having all-day headaches everyday (for which painkillers do nothing) for 2 months now and almost constant back pain. So the other night I finally decided that enough is enough. I’ve carried it with me for so long and always knew I could ask for prayer and for healing at any moment and someone would pray with me, but toughed it out instead. So while I wrestled with God on this for a while it was almost like he was saying that I could either go through all of this pain for no reason, just to be stubborn, or live a normal life, free of pain the way He intended. I knew the obvious choice, but it took me so long to finally ask for prayer. Eventually I did though, and Lindsay and Brandon graciously prayed healing over me and had me claim it myself and surrender my pride and stubbornness. The migraine and back pain didn’t go away immediately, but I felt like a huge burden had been lifted off of me after we prayed and when I woke up the next morning I felt better than I have in a long time. I also got more sleep that night than I did in the 3 previous nights combined. So the reason I write this is to ask for your prayers as well. Not only for physical healing, but also that the things I surrendered would no longer be desired and instead replaced with whatever God has for me.
Much love.
