Dear God,
I am in a strange place right now. I really have felt before that you called me to the World race, but I am wondering if that is right. I don’t actually feel that the call was wrong because I am very sure that I am in the place you want me. I just want to say that I completely give it ALL to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not just my sponsorship, my own money, my possessions and my time, but my LIFE. I NEED you. I give you The World Race and everything with it. I give you the time of the World Race. All of it is YOURS and not mine. It is NOT mine. I have been giving over pieces to you and not EVERYTHING. I still believe that you have called me to be at this place with You. I completely believe that. I also have heard that you say that you will provide and that is what I am supposed to believe. I am also to believe in what you told me yesterday “hold on to MY promises” . I am to believe that you will provide for me in the ways that will be the best for me. I am not in control of ANYTHING. This sponsorship isn’t mine, The world race isn’t mine, my relationships aren’t mine, time throughout the day isn’t mine, time in general isn’t mine. NOTHING is mine, God. It is ALL yours.
As I am typing this at Starbucks, I am listening to Will Reagan & United Pursuit Band “Psalms” (02) which I highly recommend if you haven’t heard it. This is my prayer tonight.
“Because of who you are and because of what you’ve done, I’ll sing the glories of your name. The cry of my heart is to see Your Kingdom come. Let the sound of your praise be heard!!!!”
God, I praise you this evening!!!!!! I thank you for bringing me home. I thank you for helping me work through relationships. I thank you for giving me job opportunities that I LOVE. Thank you for Skype and for bringing two people so much closer while being so far away. Thank you for YOUR timing. Thank you for hope. Thank you for helping me notice people who are broken around me. Thank you for providing for me financially. Thank you for giving me food. Thank you for giving me shelter. Thank you for another day. Thank you for a loving family. Thank you for supportive friends. Thank you for growth opportunities. Thank you for challenging me over and over again. Thank you for making me stronger. Thank you for protecting me. Thank you for guiding and leading me closer to You. Thank you for knowing me better than myself. Thank you for the group of men I see across from me who are sitting together just catching up. I don’t know if they are a bible study, family, a support group, or what. I just thank you for that reminder that you are building up men in communities and not just women. Thank you for good conversations with women and women get togethers. Thank you for Christian music. Thank you for your love. Thank you for bringing people back into my life from the past. Thank you for new friendships. Thank you for holding me. Thank you for always being there. Thank you for children. Thank you for worship. Thank you for missionaries. Thank you for filling that emptiness…and refilling it over and over again. Thank you for unexpected encouragement. Thank you for sending your son to die on the cross for MY sins. A list of my sins were on a piece of paper underneath of those nails that were pierced through your Son’s hands. My sins are NO MORE. I PRAISE YOU FOR ALL OF THESE THINGS AND MANY MORE! You are beautiful. You are glorious. You are faithful. You are just. You are TRUTH. You are LOVE. You are the one I will continuously praise.
