Training Camp has come and gone. It was the fastest and slowest week of my life. Here are some of many things that helped build what might have been the most intense week and a bit of my life to this day.
So by now, if you hadn’t guessed it, training camp was something out of the ordinary. A change of routine, with focus on self, community and ultimately God. It was a week of breaking down walls, tearing tethers, and conquering the chains of bondage that have taken over our lives.
Two main stories I would like to share are as follows. Quoted words are taken directly from my journal, as I feel that my feelings at the time of writing portray my true feelings better than re-sharing the story now.
“…I spent this time worshipping You, when I had trouble ‘feeling’ You. I couldn’t feel anything. I could get choked-up or frustrated, happy but never truly joy-filled. I wanted to feel Your love. I wanted to feel, what you feel, for the sick, lame, the physically, spiritually or emotionally dying individual. I asked if You were there. I said that I would only know it’s You if I cried, as it had been so long since I had… I felt abandoned… God, You made me cry. You gave me hope once again. You took me to my knees to reveal a tether on my life. A tether that was keeping me from feeling you. It was my attitude. I never wanted to show my true feelings for you, as I would ‘freak people out’ and be unacceptable by world standards. Those are no longer the standards I look to.”
Throughout training camp God continued to reveal himself. Many areas of my life, had to be worked through, and will continue to require maintenance (as I am not a perfect man). But I can say:
I will GO where you GO
I will SAY what you SAY
I will PRAY what you PRAY
I was encouraged through training camp to continue forward on the pursuit of God. It is hard to walk the straight and narrow. But God is not limited to borders and boxes. He is present at all times, whether we “feel Him” or not.
Secondly, on Thursday, October 22nd during worship time, The Lord did something explained only as “totally awesome” in my life.“During worship tonight I asked God for a vision of what He was going to speak this evening. He granted me the following vision: I saw a steel claymore flying down to Earth from the Heavens. It hit the Earth with huge impact and split countries, cities and nations in two. Serpents came out of hiding and fled back to Hell as God had control… Michael later that night opened up his Bible and began to read from Psalms 149”.
Now, This isn’t the exact imagery in Psalms 149, but in verses 6-9 we can see that through the praising of God and a double edged sword, God’s people “inflict vengeance on the nations” in places of injustice.
I have also received a few other visions, feelings of God’s presence throughout the week. My team explained to me, that my voice changes (in inflection) and I get “kinda shaky”. I have been literally taken to my knees multiple times, as I was made unable to stand. It may sound crazy. And you are right. It is crazy for all the right reasons. I pray that you too can share in The Lord’s presence and be taken to your knees in praise.
God is so good. I cannot emphasis it enough. Please pray for me (or keep me in your prayers) over the next two months leading to the most life changing 11 months of my life. I am still in need of financial support, as well as looking for more prayer supporters. If you can support me financially please click the SUPPORT link on the left column.
Blessings,
Chris Cave
