“I look all around me.. I see the mountains and there is so much beauty, I look at you and me and its very beauty. I see the sky, and it brings me so much beauty, but I look at all this.. and I know there is no purpose to any of it.”
This was a conversation I was having with one of my favorite students! (If there is one thing I’ve learned doing this whole teaching thing, that whole “teachers don’t have favorites” thing is such a lie). Anyways, Every day this student finds me and we talk all about good and evil, religion, our life purpose, and life after death. Some heavy crap. During this particular conversation, I was brought to tears. I could see in His eyes, that he didn’t even believe in what he was saying.
So many of us tell ourselves this so that we can skip out on all the pain and the deeper issues within us. We take the easy way out… Its so easy to just tell your self that there is no reason why you are on this earth, therefore it doesn’t matter what you do or what happens to you. But what really breaks my heart.. is that you also miss out on the true joy of life, I am not talking about happiness. I mean the joy that is not based on our circumstances, eternal joy. You miss out on true peace.. this is a fallen world that we all live in but with peace from your creator, your father in heaven, you get to rise above. You miss out on seeing Gods beauty in each human being.. like being able to see a homeless addict and just wanting to be a listening ear and show them the love we all deserve, instead of passing judgment and being thankful you’re not them. I could go on forever.. you miss out on growth, experiencing the presence of your creator, selflessness, and passion. But most importantly, you miss out on your purpose in this life!!! Without knowing our true purpose, we are tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of trouble or words. Without one, what are we doing?
Now, I’m not just saying all this to prove a point. I can speak to this because I used to be just like this student. Believe it or not, we are all searching and it just looks different for everyone. I had so many hardships growing up and I told myself, “this is just life Chloe, theres no point to it.” When the wind blew over to partying and drinking, I was there. When the wind blew over to just being cool and hooking up with guys, I was there. I allowed the waves to take me deep into self destruction.
When I laid down my life is when I truly found it. I know that I am a child of God and that this earth is not my home. Im no longer held captive by fear, comparison, and never feeling good enough. When the wind and the waves come, I can stand strong and know that my God is a Good God, and I get to experience His goodness every single day.
Do you want to know about the best part of all of this? Im going to tell you anyways. God does not love this student any less!! If you don’t believe in Him yet or recognize His sacrifice for you, He is chasing after you. You are seeing in black and white right now and God is trying to show you the rainbow!! I encourage who ever is reading this.. to take this next week and be intentional about looking for those bursts of color. You will not be able to deny the existence of your creator and that you have a purpose in this life.
”Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it” -Matthew 7:13-14
