Rant:
Why the heck am I going on this mission trip anyway?!
As I try to find out how to raise money, everyone seems to say the same thing: ‘Just share your heart with people. Tell them why you are going.’ This advice somehow implying that if I just share the deep desires of my heart with people, my personal mission for this trip, that they will just line up to support me.
Well I have one first-and-foremost problem with that: I HAVE NO FRICKIN IDEA WHY I’M GOING! Seriously. I mean the deal is pretty cool; spend a year abroad, see the world, take in foreign cultures, and serve people in the name of God while I’m doing it. Who in their right mind could say no to that?
But honestly, I don’t have some big mission here. I don’t have a heart for kids, or widows, or elderly. I’m no evangelist. I don’t have a clear vision here. All I have is an indescribably strong gravitational pull, drawing me out there. Five years ago, someone said the words: mission trip, 11 countries, 11 months; and I said YES!
Am I going to change the world? heck no. Am I going to make even the slightest, teeniest impact on even one of these countries? nope!
But you know what? If a Christian leaves this world without bringing a single other soul to Christ, their life was utterly wasted space. I cannot bear the thought of leaving this world without (even indirectly) leading another soul to my Savior; how could I possibly face Him?
Maybe you think I’m being a bit harsh… I mean ‘utterly wasted space’ is pretty strong terminology. But I mean it. Utterly. Wasted. Space.
(Parents who have raised Christian children are exempt from this rant due to the fact that they have, indeed, lead at least one other soul to Christ by raising a Christian child. I have the utmost respect for them, as this is a particularly magnificent way.)
Yep. That’s me. I’m pretty darn certain that I haven’t lead ANYBODY to Christ yet.
And the fact is, I know in my heart that I am meant to serve THOSE people. Out there. In THOSE countries. That’s me. I plan to take action and get out there.
Will I lead masses to salvation? not likely. Do I care? nope. Would it be awesome beyond my wildest dreams? sure would. Will it be the best freakin day of my LIFE when I actually lead that soul to my Lord? HELLS YEAH!!! And I won’t stop there.
I aim to wander this world. And, more importantly, I aim to plant seeds as I go. THAT’S why I’m going.
End rant.
