All too often, I catch myself dreaming, or planning the future out. That's mistake #1. The future is a place where idolizing happens, and missing out on what God's desires for His people and His kingdom are right now.
It's dangerous territory, and I'm all too familiar with it.
I've always loved dreaming about the future: Trying to plan out what I will be doing and what my life will look like for the next five years. Where I will live, what I will be doing, etc.
But how is that following God?
So, when He flipped my world upside down before the Race, and asked me to go on this journey, I should have learned that His plans are infinitely more glorious and more creative than mine. And yet, here I am, thinking about where I want to live next year, what I want to do.
Boulder, Colorado? Penang, Malaysia? Hike the Appalachian Trail? Build a tiny home? Go to seminary? Go to the International House of Prayer to study prophetic worship?
I love imagining these things, and yet, I feel the anxiety of them, all at the same time.
But really, it's a time to lay these things down at the alter. To say to God, "YOU are more important that anything I want to do, where I want to live, or who I want to be. YOU, and a relationship with you is the only thing that will satisfy."
Because He really is. We try to plan, to manipulate and control our lives, without understanding the implications for the future. Only God can see that, being outside of time as He is. And so He is the only one that can securely lead us in the right ways. Yes, I do believe that He gives us choices sometimes, when all of the choices have Him at the center. But I love it more when His fingerprint on it.
That's where the beauty of it lies.
Do you catch yourself in these times as I do? Lay it down at His feet. I promise it's worth it.
If I hadn't, I wouldn't be on this crazy beautiful journey called the World Race.
