i have been going about this all wrong.
you see, my flesh has been and is fighting a losing battle.
Paul talks about in Romans 7 how terrible he feels for
doing the things he knows are not of God.
it's exhausting, believing one way and acting another.
why not just take the grace we should so readily receive, right?
i am tired of repressing my feelings.
i am tired of giving to get something.
i am tired of breaking relationships.
i am tired of being a ghost in this earth.
what’s worse than resisting this process is rejecting my Heavenly Father in the same breath.
every corner of darkness in me is being called under the submission of Christ.
my heart cry is so desperate for change.
glad that the love of God is not hidden
by jungle canopy in Ecuador
or outdone by the burning desert sands of Peru.
i am so stubborn and i didn't even know it.
