So you may be thinking, isn’t training camp all about
“training”?? YES, it is! But there were so many other things that were MORE
important that just training us.
More than once in the early week, I had the opportunity to
love on a few people. Not only am I a massage therapist, but have the gift of
discernment sometimes too (MORE about this later too). I gave one of my squad
mates a massage and really triggered a few things that may be going on in her
that needed to be dealt with. I felt like that opened a door to be able to
speak truth into her, and share a book that I so happen to have brought with
me. God is funny sometimes. I really had NO intention of reading this book at
camp, but brought it in case I needed to be reminded of its truths. How cool that
I could share it with someone. Thank you GOD! I shared that situation with
Jimmy, who runs camp the next day, and then in turn asked me to pray for
someone else during a time that a few individuals were sharing some hard
things. It was SO awesome to be able to pray over someone and to hear from the
Lord (prophesying) over them, and speaking truth into him or her. I enjoyed this opportunity to pray and
do something I didn’t think I could do very well. Turns out, I can, and do it
well!
Something that the Lord, I think, was trying to teach me
this week is rest. Its just ONE of many things, but I need to learn this. We
had a time of inviting the Holy Spirit to come upon us, and my experience was
that I just went “limp”. I think that the Lord was healing me and allowing me
to experience more freedom. I tend to hold a lot of things in my body instead
of allowing them to just come out. I eventually gave that up and just let it
go. It was freeing and awesome.
Being away from “reality” this week has been freeing. I’m living
out of a backpack with no real running water, cold showers and lots of outside
time. Its rained, it got so cold at night, I don’t know how I survived… BUT
this lack of reality, or the real world or whatever you call it, has been
awesome. I am no longer bound by the things of the world, material objects,
makeup, running toilets, etc, but am bound to the Lord.
On Monday night, we had worship and a session. The session
isn’t important, but what happened before worship. We had just come to sit down
and begin worship. I noticed that my hands were starting to get really hot. Let
me just say that IT WAS COLD outside, and there was NO reason for my hands to
be hot. COLD. OUTSIDE. I have heard from other racers before that if your hands
get hot, its possible that God wants to use them for healing, in the literal,
laying hands on someone sense. But I just took that and stored it away. After
the session, I talked to Jimmy about it, about what it meant, and if this is
something maybe God wants to really do through me. Being a massage therapist,
and taking spiritual gifts tests and what not, I’ve always thought that I had
the gift of healing. But now that I was experiencing this supernatural heat
from my hands, it’s completely Gods plan. Jimmy’s advice was to practice and
learn how God wanted me to use it. Right after that, I took a walk with my
great friend and fellow racer, Charity. She said that God has spoken to her
during the session. She then told me that God wants to use ME to HEAL others on
this race. Let me just say (for those of you who need this), that I was NOT
sitting anywhere near her, I didn’t tell her anything at all. She came up to ME
to tell ME what God had said about ME. I literally almost fell to the ground in
disbelief. AND THEN, I jumped for joy and excitement. I felt like I finally had
a purpose in this. I finally felt like God could speak to me (I’ve always known
this, but never really felt it). I felt like I was hand picked for this. I felt
like God was confirming one more time that this is exactly where I am suppose
to be….
So, Here I AM, a HEALER!
More to come when I have some more time!
