It's true. I did. Here's how…
I left for Sweden July 20th, 2012, doubting my call to The World Race.
This trip to Sweden was a mission trip with my church — the second year I've gone. We were partnering with an organization known as Sport for Life– a fantastic Christian sports organization.
(check them out! /www.sportforlife.se ) While there, I was set to teach kickboxing, soccer, and whatever else they might need help with during the week. Here's the interesting thing about this trip. I really don't remember signing up. I mean, I know I did. But, I don't remember ever fully making the decision to go. It just seemed like all of a sudden I was going. (This is important, because had I fully sat down to think about it, I wouldn't have ended up going–for various reasons).
All this to say……………I love the Lord's perfectly orchestrated timing!
I. LOVE. IT.
Because here's the thing….
In July, I was in bondage. I was blinded by the god of this world. I was clinging to the things of this world–beautiful things that I had developed a passion for. But, I had allowed that passion to consume me. I didn't want to go on The World Race. I was under heavy spiritual attack, but I didn't even know it. I couldn't call it by name.
Then Sweden came. God in His sovereignity and perfectly orchestrated timing sent me there right when I was under the deepest attack.
It was my first breath of air after being close to drowning in the waters of this world.
The scales on my eyes were thrown off. My love for the nations was rekindled. The ashes of my love for missions were set ablaze. The cords tying me to the earthly things I was clinging to were thrown off.
I gazed into the eyes of Jesus and reclaimed Him as my first love.
Oh, He is SO good to me! In Sweden, clarity, straight from God, fell upon me. My flesh was trying to cling to earthly things, but His strength sustained me. I was humbled before God and reminded that my desires are not to dominate the plan.
"Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has nothing I desire besides You." (Psalm 73:25).
Nothing else. No one else. None but Jesus.
