Hello from Bosnia!
For the last few weeks I have been racking my brain searching for things to write. Everything I was coming up with just felt off. I wasn’t getting any ideas and at this point I want to give the best of what I have to offer.
As I was thinking today I felt like the Lord was saying, “Just give an honest update.”
So, here it is.
It’s the middle of the Race. I’m tired. It’s cold in Bosnia and all I packed was warm weather clothes. I’ve felt aimless. I’m still trying to figure myself out.
At the end of Month 4 in Cambodia we got new teams and I became a team leader. To be completely honest, I’ve felt like a bit of a failure.
I’m a year into my walk with the Lord and I’ve been trying to figure out what my purpose is. God is revealing himself in new ways, but I don’t think I’ve done a great job at seeing them.
There has been so much change happening and I feel like I’m in a whirlwind; like I can’t grasp anything.
I miss home. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my church. I miss driving. I miss Chick-fil-a…
God is good.
Please, don’t hear me complain, because that’s not the point. I didn’t write this to whine, but to tell you the truth.
What the Lord is teaching me through all of this is that He is my constant. He is my Rock and Salvation. My refuge. My hiding place. My fortress in the storm. He is everything to me.
He’s showing me that even though I feel like I’m in a whirlwind, I will not be shaken. He’s proven faithful in the planting of my faith.
He’s showing me the storms raging around me are just a means to water my roots and take me deeper.
He’s showing me I don’t have to be the “end product” for Him to use me. I don’t have to have it all figured out to be a vessel for the Lord. I don’t have to be perfect.
He’s been saying, “Just let me be your center. I have this figured out so you don’t have to.”
I know it’s scary to trust, but I would rather put my life in the hands of the Creator of the universe than in my own. I will mess up. I will make mistakes. The same is true for every one of us.
But there’s hope.
We serve the One who can make no mistakes, who can do no wrong. There is no hint of turning in our Father. He reigns for all of eternity and sits enthroned forever.
He is perfect. And He is love.
Without the Lord, you will always let yourself down. No matter how hard we try to do right. No matter how hard we work at things. We cannot get through this life without Him.
But God loves you. And there’s no striving in Him. There is no condemnation for those who love the Lord.
He wants to help you. He wants you to succeed. And He loves you so so so so dearly.
I want to encourage you all to let the Lord in. Let Him be your center. Let Him reign in your heart and in your life. I promise He will never let you down.
With great love,
Chels
