For a week I was terrified of the people around me.
I came into training camp with an attitude of having a good relationship with Jesus.
I thought I had the general idea figured out.
Well, I was wrong.
We are finally introduced to our leaders; people who have been on the field and want to torture (help) us.
Mine included these freaking weirdo’s;
Aly, Erin, Chelsea, Hannah, Phillip and Jessica.
As soon as I we were introduced, I wanted to leave.
They all looked way too excited and every single one of the danced weirdly, like people weren’t watching them.
I was terrified.
The people that surrounded me were going to break me.
They were going to bring me to places that forced me to deal with my junk.
I didn’t want to do.
I wanted to be just fine where I was,
but them being too much like Jesus,
loved me enough to not let me.
This past week of training camp brought out things inside of me that disgusted me.
Attitudes that made me want to vomit;
words that made me want to wash my own mouth out.
Jesus was in and through this place, and that terrified me.
I couldn’t hide behind a fake joy that I had always performed.
I couldn’t close my eyes and pretend to be holy.
They knew, they saw.
The people that work at the world race are hardcore, parkour.
They want you to come to a place of broken-ness so you can really understand the joy of Christ.
I didn’t understand joy,
I didn’t understand the freedom that came with Christ.
I do now, trust me when I say that, I do now.
Jesus has so much more for you than you think you have for yourself.
His freedom outshines any other thing I’ve ever known.
I’m now someone I hope terrifies people.
I now hope I am clumped with people that challenge you.
I now am someone that dances so weird you think I’m having an aneurysm, because I can.
The joy that flows through my bones is only given from Jesus.
I hope you find it, because there is nothing else like it.
The people at the world race terrified me,
but now, I terrify myself.
I AM FREE FROM CHAINS AND IMPERFECTIONS.
I DECLARE JOY OVER MY LIFE, AND I DECLARE CHANGE IN THE NATIONS.
Thank you, Aly, Erin, Chelsea, Hannah, Phillip and Jessica!
You let Jesus change my life through you.
You all mean too much for me to explain.
I love you.
