it convicted the crap outta me.
i'm sorry.
"Rejoice with those who rejoice,
weep with those who weep."
-Romans 12:15
Lately, whenever i see someone post about
how they have met their goal,
or ordered their supplies,
or conqured yet another goal i havent,
i get bitter.
I ignore that post.
I get angry.
I still need money before i can get excited about training camp.
I still need to buy insurance with $300 i can't spend.
I still need supplies.
I'm so concerned with my own needs
that i dont care about anything or anyone else.
How selfish.
How disgusting.
How un-Jesus like of me.
"Jesus wept."
That is the shortest and most influential verse in the bible.
He knew he was going to raise Lazarus from the dead,
so why was he crying?
He wept because lazarus's sisters were.
He wept because others were.
He wept with those who were weeping.
I'm not rejoing with them at all.
I'm a selfish person.
especially when stress is put on me with money.
I'm sorry, team.
I'm sorry, friends.
I'm sorry, Lord.
I'm so proud of all of you for reaching your goals and
being extremely gracious.
I love you, all.
I love you, Lord.
Thank you for showing me who i am,
and who you want me to be.
Grace is the only thing that holds me together.
And Jesus, you are the ONLY good thing about me.
