Yesterday Hannah posted on our facebook group that we had 100 days until training camp.
That was nice of her.
I was at work and read the updated text on the wall.
My stomach felt like it was in my throat and there was no swallowing it.
My hands started to sweat and my heart started to beat all too quickly.
Fear paralyzed me for a good 10 minutes.
Literally, i was terrified.
How could it be that close already.
100 days.
I'll be in Georgia meeting everyone in 100 days.
We will be preparing for our trip with more haste in 100 days.
100 days has never seemed so close in that 10 minutes.
And if i'm being honest, the whole rest of my day.
The world race has been on my heart for a good year and half now.
i've read the blogs.
prayed the prayers
and waiting for my age to grow so i could apply.
This has always been a great and wonderful idea.
Even as i'm raising support and seeing God provide, it doesnt seem real.
It seems like a far away thing that really isnt going to happen.
To me, at least.
In September of 2012, 5 months to be exact i will be boarding a plane that takes us to our first country.
In 5 months i will not see Coldwater Michigan or anyone in for 11 months.
In 5 months i will be without my daddy, my best friend, or my little sister.
In 5 months i will be without the comfort of my own bed and the comfort of my routines.
I will be without my church family.
I will be without hot showers.
I will be without alone time.
i will be without my puppies.
I will be without the constant communication of the one person that is completely a part of me.
I will be without any sense of comfort that i have known up until this point.
It finally hit me, and it hit me hard.
As i write this tears form in my eyes.
Jesus has completely brought me to a place id never thought i'd be in.
This is a scary thing, to leave everything you have ever known for a year.
To go to so many new places to share the Gospel of truth.
I'm terrified.
but i'm also exceedingly stoaked.
In 5 months i will be in the presence of a new family of beautiful people that love and adore God.
In 5 months i will be loving on orphans.
laughing with drunks.
mourning with widows.
crying with my team mates.
and loving God in a way i cant even comprehend in this place in my life.
Even though i'm terrified, and even though my heart exelerates anytime i think about leaving.
I'm so excited to be given this opportunity.
For those of you choosing to support me.
THANK YOU, from the bottom of my core, you dont know how much i appreciate it.
I love Jesus with everything i have and i'm learning to love him more everyday.
Thank you for letting me show other people His love, too.
