Hello! My name is Chelsea Angel and you must be someone who is wondering what I am up to.
After many ughs, oohs, ahhs and prayer out the yahoo I have decided to attend the Christian missions trip called THE WORLD RACE! My life has literally been turned completely backwards from where I was before I truly understood the power of Christ. He forgave me, even though I in no way deserve His grace. I am ready to share my experience and smack some love into the face of the world.
hmm… where to begin.
I was raised in a Christian home with a loving family but I was always confused about the overall concept of living a Christ-centered life. There were so many others who seemed to have their lives go down a specific/perfect path and I thought mine would follow. I saw other people having their world completely overflow with His love but my cup was pretty empty. When things didn’t go according to plan, I started to lose myself in the hustle.
Every time I saw something wrong in my life I would immediately freak out and try to hide. The universe started to make me cringe and I started to panic. My anxiety was exploding inside of me and I did everything to hold it in. I began to burst with questions: Why wasn’t my life functioning correctly? When was everything going to fall into place? Why am I not like everyone else? Why didn’t I feel Christ in my life?
When I didn’t see any remote sign of hope, I lost control over myself. I latched onto anything that could possibly make my life better. I tried an enormous range of things to try and sort myself out. The problem was, every new thing caused new problems. I was jam packed with some serious issues and I did not see a light at the end of the tunnel.
On top of everything, the church I was growing up in did not seem to try and help me in any way. When I functioned in a pre-planned manner, I was automatically accepted. If I did things out of line or behaved in any unpleasant form, I was conveniently rejected or dismissed. As I grew older, I wrote off the Christian community as a place I wasn’t welcomed. It was a world that Chelsea Angel was not suited for.
As I was lost and utterly confused, I played hide and seek with God. I tried to let Him in when I felt like He could fix something and would otherwise ignore Him, storing His power in a convenient box. If Jesus did not reveal Himself in a way that was cohesive to my whack job life then I would push Him as far away as possible.
Every day was a never ending war within myself. I hated my existence and everything I lived with. I did not understand anyone and no one really seemed to understand me. I rejected my life as others rejected me and it really took a toll. I did not care about my own well-being and was on the verge of giving up.
After many failed attempts of self-repair and “starting anew”, I finally made it to massage therapy school. I learned so much about my impact on the world and how easily the world could damage me. I started to finally understand what was really going on in my life and I started to see God’s hand in everything. I felt His indescribable energy surging through my every vein. He showed me what I had so long dismissed and denied. I saw what I had been missing and I was ready to take Him head on in everything.
His love slapped me harder than anything ever had before. Through all the doors I have walked through and all of the paths I have trodden upon, nothing can even compare to the walk I will take with Christ. I want to show how merciful He is to those who see no hope in their souls. I want to serve Him so that the earth can see how unparalleled His love really is. My devotion is to His most Righteous choice for my life: to spread His word to those without.
If you would like to help me on my journey please click SUPPORT ME and donate your prayers or any funding you feel you can provide. I am ready to show the world just what God has done for me and what He can do for all of us.
