In case you didn’t know, I am back in the United States!
I have not been writing a lot recently because things have been a little weird since I have returned home. Life in modern America is a lot different than 24/7 life in a community on the missions field for 11 months. I can’t really describe in totality what exactly my heart has been going through since I stepped into JFK but I want to do my best to describe it to those of you faithful readers.
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Yes, that photo is the best way I can describe what is going on. God is really clearing out a lot of junk that I had built in my head the last few months on the field and He is really shedding me of my ill-conceived notions and ridiculous expectations I had for my return. It is a challenge to be here, to see people I haven’t seen for so long, to have plans other than wander around in the Holy Spirit all day and to take regular showers. It’s strange to be making plans that don’t involve finding out where the American candy is sold in the closest town or how I could have someone translate an encouragement for some random person or how it seems that all of modern music is like listening to audio sin. All in all, IT’S SUPER AWKWARD!
The best part of being here, however, is knowing that I have the trust of a Father who isn’t going anywhere. My relationship with His son is not going to fly away just because I’m back in America. Life isn’t going to stop just because I’m not sure what to do with myself and He is not going to stop loving me simply due to my dysfunctions. God has it all worked out and I know that I can trust Him. I can do anything right now, even if I am slightly scared of white people. The biggest comfort I can rest in is those Loving Arms and know that He is going to take care of my current state of crazy.
What now, you ask? Stay tuned for my post later today.
