In typical Chelsea fashion, I don’t really know how to feel. I have never been able to express myself vocally in any sort of emotional manner. My brain functions very logically and my sentiments almost always take a back seat. I am good at reading the emotions and expressions of others but not capable of the same action within myself. I am fully aware that this is not the typical nature of a woman but it’s just the way I roll.
The reason I am telling all of you this is because I firmly believe this is what God will have me focus on within myself in the next year. I know that I will be spreading His almighty power to the farthest reaches of the earth but I cannot leave my soul in the dust. I have battled with my inner turmoil for a long time and it has become very clear that God is preparing me for a serious interlude in my natural thought process. It is easiest for me to learn about myself when I learn from the experiences and lifestyles of others and the World Race is going to be dumping buckets of Christ-centered self discovery.
It is always easier for me to write my escapades down, to perceive life on a screen or sit and stare at the world rather than burst with outspoken emotion. I am always more fascinated with the goings on of others than I could ever be with my own life. I am ready to serve the Lord but I know I will have to distribute my focus in so many places, including on myself.
I ask that all of you pray for my continuing struggle within. With Jesus in my heart I know that the only place to go is up. Every facet of my being is going to be absolutely rattled and I know He will prepare me for it. The World Race is not intended to be a cake walk void of feeling and I know I will need a heavy spiritual backing from all of you. Christ is pushing me forward and October grows closer by the day. I am going to grow exponentially and I am ready to share it with all of you.
