Holy Bananas! As I sit in a 3-story McDonald’s in KL I can’t help but see my reality: awesome. God has showered me with blessings from the left, right, diagonal and face-first time and time again. I can’t thank Him enough for never ceasing to blow my mind. God holds my heart so gently and smacks my head so lovingly… I can’t help but say “thanks” and wait for more. These first 5 months have been a challenging road and I pray that the challenges won’t stop.
All of these things aside, I feel like I should address something that continues to press on a nerve. When people start describing the World Race for what they know it to be, one phrase is repeated over and over again. Something continues to be said that only wades in the shallow pool of what I am really doing. A simple something… but infuriating all the same “You gave up a year of your life to do this”.
Why oh why should that frustrate me? Why oh why should I spend my time stewing in my thoughts about something that really shouldn’t be complex? To put it simply, this is my life. I’m not planning on returning home and falling back to the way I started this year. I’m not going to accept a mediocre existence and only aspire to fulfilling the American dream. I didn’t abandon my life for a year… I frankly slammed my foot on the accelerator and didn’t hesitate to look back. I gave up what I thought was life and jumped into something so much greater than anything I could have had on my own. I made my life the life God wants for me and I don’t want anything less than that.
My heart wants you to understand that I don’t want to be recognizable when I return home. I might have a few cuts and bruises but I don’t want you to notice those things. I want you to see me as someone who is only walking in the path that He wants for me. I want walk into a room and cause everyone to get goosebumps due to the heaviness of His presence in my being. I won’t accept anything less than looking like a woman who is absolutely nutty for God. This the life He wants for me… not just a break from the life the rest of the world is expecting me to live.
I have one final challenge for all of you: what are you doing with your life? Is your existence yours or His? Are you waiting on the world to change or are you going to step up and do something about it?
