For those of you who have decided to tune out of my blogs (yeah, I’m calling you out), that’s your choice. I started to feel quite a stir in my spirit when I saw that upon my return to the states and my venture to Spain that my readers have stopped reading. I couldn’t help but begin to wonder if what I am doing out here has turned you away from wanting to continue to spiritually invest in my future. I want all of you to feel as though you are still connected to it all in some way. After some investment into what God was exuding through my spirit, I came to the conclusion that I need to be B.S. Free.
I’m not over here in Europe having a six month vacation where I go to some “liberal/grade free” school that has nothing to do with “real-life”. I’m not farting around, taking my sweet old time to do as I please and eventually I’ll be standing on my two feet. This place isn’t some sort of joke that I just wanted to go and hang out in. Truth be told, this place is bringing out the rawest of the raw and I’m NOT here for NOTHING.
Now I know not all of you think I’m wasting my time but I just knew something needed to be said for those of you who just might have that notion tickling in your mind. G42 has already kicked my butt up and down in just 2 weeks and I don’t like being pigeon-holed into a place of “world-traveler” or “you got bitten by the travel bug”. I believe I’d much rather be seen as someone who is here following the call of Christ within them. In all honesty, I don’t want to sit in a comfortable place in America and sell out for the American dream. There is no security in a life of mediocrity and no space for faith in myself anymore. I’m open and constantly vulnerable but I am no longer going to accept the lives of others to be the rules in my own life. I don’t want to sound like I’m trying to make you think the same way, I just want to seize the love and power God has stored in all of us and send a tornado of the Holy Spirit throughout the world. It’s time for the real truth to be told and G42 is ripping it straight out of me.
Some of you may think that because I’m not standing in rural Africa that I’m not worth following anymore, some may be offended and some of you may choose not to read about my life too much anymore… but I know God is taking care of you with my words or not. He is madly in love with us because He is Love… and we can’t ask for anything more than that. Jesus is radical and this life is a gift that we don’t deserve in the least little bit. I’m not going to settle for wambi-bambi-pambi nothing of drifting from emotion to emotion and success to success- I want to hear the praise of the Lord on the lips of all.
