It’s that time of year
again! God has just delivered a seriously hard slap in the face and it is about
darn time.
First things first, we are
in the lovely country of Panama this month. We have recently arrived into a
ministry that has been basically laid out for us on a silver platter.
Everything is planned and paid for before hand, allowing our team to gear our
focus on other trying issues: ourselves. God definitely placed us in a
situation where the ball is in our court… and I am so ready for this.
How does having the busy
work out of the way slap me with a much-needed dose of reality? Because the
Lord has finally pointed the finger of truth at my face. I have been so
confident that God wanted me to facilitate change in others, so much so that I
lost myself in the hustle. I had almost completely forgotten to pay attention
to lil’ ol’ me because I was so confident that I knew exactly what God wanted
for everyone else. When I started to see God putting my focus on myself I began
to panic. I started to feel the tingle of change coming and I thought it would
be small. I knew my personal outlook was going to transform but I did not know
it was in need of a SERIOUS overhaul.
What was I missing? What
on earth could have slipped through my fingers? I am extremely gifted in the realm
of observation… and I have the habit of being a bit of a know-it-all. My
reality check comes into play when I apply my gift to the outside world. I
hadn’t fully absorbed how much info I had been overstocked with until a friend
of mine hit me with a lot of things he had been observing about me. I have
ALWAYS been the one who knew/saw everything…and I will confess, I was floored. I
have observed and categorized my thoughts my entire life. When someone does the
same to you it can really knock your socks off. It was almost infuriating for
someone else to tell me what I have conveniently brushed under the rug. I
thought I was at a level of understanding that was beyond everyone else… but
that was an honest (and enormous) mistake.
So, what exactly did this
person tell me? I will explain myself next blog-around. The details of this
revelation are going to develop in this lovely month of December and I do hope
(for your sake) that you are ready.
