People sang praises, I painted, and the Cajón pulsed.
The Presence of God was heavy in the house and I could feel my spirit stirring me to move. Setting my brushes down, I closed my eyes and saw what I would do- if only I could get up off the floor.
But as I sat cross legged in the corner, fear whispered insecurities and I stayed where I was. The house was crowded and I was afraid of what people would think. When I was younger, someone told me I was a weird dancer and I embraced the lie. I'd never felt comfortable expressing myself through movement, and for the most part I’d never really tried.
But during training camp, I saw what freedom in dance looked like and I wanted it! I asked the Lord to teach me how to dance without fear on the Race, but He didn’t wait that long!! Soon after coming home, total strangers began to ask me if I was a dancer.
All I knew was that I didn’t feel like a dancer, but it’s what I wanted!
The next Sunday I had the same feeling in my spirit during worship, but I felt physically petrified; wanting to move, but unable to. I was sitting on the floor in the front of the sanctuary, with people all around me, and again I asked the Lord to teach me how to move my body!
I didn’t want to wait, I just didn’t know how to start!
A few seconds later, a woman I had never talked to before came up and sat beside me, asking if I was a dancer.
In surprise, I told her yes, but that I didn’t know how. She smiled and stood up, extending her hand to me, and despite my uncertainty, I accepted. I later found out that she was the founder of the church’s dance team! We spun around and around the room and I could tell that people were looking haha. Normally, it would have bothered me, especially as I lost my footing and slipped more than once… but her confidence gave me confidence to just keep trying.
It was amazing and so freeing! And the start of something totally new!
So I declare greater freedom for everyone reading this! Whatever it looks like for you. The enemy tried to destroy my confidence in dance from a very young age and now I’m reclaiming what is mine. I believe dance is a weapon of spiritual warfare and I look forward to destroying the works of the devil as I dance with the Holy Spirit and declare the praises of God! haha
I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do! God bless!
