I have an important announcement.
I am not going to make it to the NBA. You may be a little confused, mostly about why I’m just now making this announcement. Or why I think it’s worthy of mentioning at all.
That’s where I am right now, in this place of letting go of a dream and a plan (or all of the plans, really) and trying to pick up a new one. I’m laying down my NBA dream. That was my dream once, back when the biggest obstacle to becoming the first female on the Bulls looked like the third grade boys at recess who were taking up all of the courts, but now it’s just more of a metaphor.
Sunday morning, I woke up with a song playing through my head.
You can have all this world.
That’s the NBA dream: all this world. I’m talking about the dreams I made up for myself (even the ones that didn’t have anything to do with playing basketball.) I’m talking about the plans I came up with for myself.
I’m laying those plans down. I have been in the process of laying them down for the past two years.
The problem is, I am constantly making new ones for myself. Even when I lay my own plans down, I instantly start the search for new ones.
I’m laying that down, too.
Give me Jesus.
We keep singing that. We keep singing that we would give away the whole world for Jesus. We would give up the whole world to follow God. But I think that’s easier than it should be to sing because we don’t think it’s something we are actually going to have to do.
Yeah, sure, I would give up the whole world for Jesus. As long as he doesn’t actually ask me to.
Until we become the rich young ruler. (Luke 18)
Until we become Abram.
Genesis 12 starts off with God telling Abram to leave his country, leave the people he knows, leave his family, and his father’s house. God tells him to get up and go. The thing is, though, that he didn’t tell Abram where to go. He told him to leave and go to the place that he was going to show him.
OK, we’re familiar with that, the call of God. God tells you what to do and the reaction should be to do it.
What do we do? We make goals and timelines, and surely we can’t leave before we know the destination. How will we get there?
But God didn’t tell Abram where he was going. He didn’t say, “Hey Abram, I’d really like you to go to Canaan. Also, do you think you could be there by the thirteenth? Ok, thanks.” Leaving Abram to figure out the logistics on his own.
You can have all this world.
What does that even look like? Does it look like going on the World Race? Because I’m discovering first hand that is not the end.
I’m still following God to the land he is still going to show me. That’s what it looks like to me. And that’s where I feel like I am right now.
You can have all this world.
It’s saying you can have all of the plans. You can have all of the security. You can have all of the dreams and wants and desires and things I was supposed to do.
Because I want Jesus.
Give me Jesus.
I want Jesus dreams and wants and desire and things I am supposed to do.
That’s not always easy to say because it comes with a cost, and right now, that cost for me isn’t really a sacrifice I am making. At least it doesn’t feel like it is. Right now, that cost for me is money that I still have to raise.
Right now, he has me in Gainesville, Georgia at the Adventures in Missions base, and I still need $1,000 to finish out the summer
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You can have all this world; give me Jesus.
