Jesus’ ministry is the prime example of God performing the unexpected. One moment, He is found teaching in the synagogue. The next moment, He is sitting with prostitutes and tax collectors. On a superficial level, there is so much instability to Jesus’ actions. The depths all have the same purpose—to penetrate the hearts of the people to whom He is ministering.
The question I am constantly faced with is: will I trust God no matter no matter what the situation looks like?
This is a challenging task for me. Trust is not something I can do easily. Despite, God’s track record in my life, it is still very difficult for me to trust God. I want to know the bigger picture. I want to control everything in my life. The fact of the matter is, I can’t control everything in my life. It’s silly to think this is possible.
Once I recognized how impossible this is, I surrendered something God had been asking me to do. God has been asking me to surrender my family to Him. I am the oldest daughter to a single mother. Growing up, I was given a lot of responsibilities. I was supposed to protect my little brothers, serve as emotional support, and behave honorably. These are not bad things, but I was held to these expectations for so long that they meshed with my character. I became really controlling.
Over the past few months, God has shown me I cannot control everything that affects my family. He has asked me to surrender my solutions to their problems and embrace His solutions and timing. It has not been easy, but God has worked in their lives in awesome ways since I’ve been thousands of miles away. He actually has everything under control. He blesses them in ways that I wouldn’t expect he would.
