I wanted to post all of this at once but didn’t think the timing was appropriate. First of all, I want to thank all of my supporters who answered the call from the Lord to help fund me in keeping me out on the field. I have been blessed by so many people and have learned so much through the process of support raising. I am FULLY FUNDED and the Lord has blessed me through you and in return I pray blessings over you and your families.
In Cape Town we led Holiday clubs for an organization called Living Hope. We went in to the slums where people are living in containers and fed the children after playing games and a lesson.
Now back to the story of the Three Trees (from my previous blog).
The past week has been really tough for me personally. I have had to stay back from ministry, in what I decided to call “a time out” to raise support and contact supporters and blog so that I am allowed to stay on the race. There has been a storm in my head for this past week and I have struggled to trust the Lord, a lot. I desperately wanted to stay on the race and although I had full confidence that He called me to the race, doubts began to creep in my mind. I began to think thoughts like, “What if this is Lord’s way of calling me home?”; “What if this is another difficult lesson I was meant to learn, by having to go home?”. It was a really tough week as I watched my teammates leave every day for ministry knowing that I was not allowed to go until I was fully funded.
Everyone else had a peace about their funds and I was going crazy. I felt like one of the 3 trees that I was expecting the World Race to look a certain way but what if part of my Race was meant to be done back in the States. I received so much encouragement and love from my friends and squadmates.
This is my teammate Natalie and I. She stayed home with me and support raised and was such an encouragement to me. She speaks so much life in to people it is out of control.
I began to read scriptures about the Lord and all His facets: A Shepherd, the Creator, Jehovah- Jireh, Healer, Peace-maker, Lord of Hosts, Omniscient, Omnipresent. I buried myself in His promises and what I know to be truth. I still didn’t have peace.
I went for a run and listened to one of my favorite worship songs at the moment and the lyrics spoke to me:
“In this redemption, love and mercy displayed.
You lifted my eyes to see that your truth never fails.”
God is not a God of confusion. He is a just God and will always come through, even if it at the eleventh hour. In my case that is where I found complete surrender and a complete peace that can only be found in God.
