Since my last blog was a bit of a downer, I figured I would give you an update from the other side of my dry season. It may seem like a pretty quick turn around, but in all actuality I waited until the end of my dry season to tell you about it. I didn’t have any desire to admit my lack of communion with the Lord. After all I am supposed to be a missionary, which automatically gives me a closer relationship to God, right? (For the sake of clarity, I do not believe that being on the World Race magically makes me closer to the Lord. God is present in the life of EVERY believer, and desires the same intimacy with each of us regardless of our title.)
I’ve learned a new lesson in the last few days. Or maybe God’s just revealed His truth in a different way and I finally got it. Either way, I had an amazing revelation. Get ready for it…IT’S NOT ABOUT ME. What’s even more revolutionary is that since it’s not about me, I realized IT’S ALL ABOUT GOD’S GLORY!
You may be thinking that I’ve completely lost it, because I should’ve known this a long time ago. But there’s a difference in knowing something and understanding it. I can say that God gets all the glory, but I enjoy it when people take notice of what I’m doing for God. I like to take some of the glory and focus it on me instead of giving it all to God.
I’m starting to fully understand that in every situation God deserves the glory. This means that when I’m in a dry season, God gets glory. When I’m passionately pursuing intimacy with God, He gets the glory. In any situation that goes on in my life, God gets glory. On top of all that I’m realizing that whatever God brings into my life is exactly what is going to bring Him the most glory.
I’ve been thinking about examples of God bringing glory to Himself in my life. In every situation I think of, God is getting the glory. I think of the death of people that I loved dearly, and God used it to bring glory to Himself. Even in my tears, He is glorified. Now, you may be thinking that’s pretty unfair of God to make me suffer in order to bring glory to Himself, but there’s where I’ve been wrong. Remember what I said earlier? It’s not about me, it’s about God getting more glory. So if He gets more glory out of my tears, then so be it. If He gets glory out of me being dry in Cambodia, then that’s what needs to happen. More than anything, I want everything about my life to bring God all the glory it possibly can.
I’m praying this for you as well. Think about it in your own life. It’s not about you, it’s about God’s glory. When we begin to live like that a lot of things change. Our attitude is completely shifted to what brings God the most glory. I mean, honestly, God deserves every ounce of glory in every situation. Who am I to keep Him from getting it all. Just think about it. And if you want to read the book that started this whole revelation check out “Cat and Dog Theology”, but be prepared for God to change your perspective.
