Never understood when people said that the process hurts but the victory that they receive in the end it’s worth every tear. Now I find myself in the middle of my process and boy does it hurt . Since I began this process for the missionary trip I found myself like Job; loosing everything that at the moment I found of such high value to me not knowing God had greater things for me. Since I arrive to the country of South Africa the Lord has stir my spirit with Psalm 142 and honestly I thought everything was going good in my life and I asked the Lord why do you continue to take me to that psalm? The psalm speaks about David pleading to the Lord for help in the midst of his trials and I said ok Lord what are you trying to teach me ? Then it came to me that the Lord just wanted to give me a heads up as to what was about to happen . I’ve already been here for a couple weeks and I can tell you how I find myself fighting a situation every day (they are not repetitive) unconsciously I found myself asking the Lord what’s happening, when am I going to see the victory ? And the Lord said ” I’m polishing you, I’m cleansing you, you think everything I relived prior to the trip was enough?
“Well you are wrong . You know begin your process” now it’s me to cries out to the Lord like David did in psalm 142, I call into Him because He’s my Jehovah Jirah “The God who will provide all my needs”. I put before you my complains and worries because I know He listens. When I don’t feel valiant I let God know because He knows my foot steps and He takes care of His children. When I feel alone and have no one to take care of me, I remember that He is my faithful friend that understand me and comprehends me. Like verse 5 says “I cried out to you, oh Lord; and said: You are my hope, my portion in the earth of the survivors” He is the only one who motivates me to continue in the midst of my trial, He gives me that hope, and He is the perfect portion. I cry out to Him because He’s the only one who listens to me when the only thing I want to do is cry. He is Elohim the creator, the strong and like David recognized it so did I. I just want Him to deliver my soul from prison so that I can freely worship His holy name. Also to let people know of all the good things that God has done in my life all thru my process. But in the midst of my process I can say that God loves me in my imperfection God is powerful. God won’t ever leave me. – Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”
