So, I have been home for a little bit now from training camp, but this morning is when God really kinda Woke me up! I went to training camp stressed, angry, fearful, and a lot of other emotions…I am currently on the last leg of a 24 hour fast with my squad and God has showed me so much today I would never be able to show it in a blog. This morning I was praying and thinking back to T.C. I remember thinking I really dont think I am ready for this, and i dont think i am going to get anything out of this. I also wasnt sure I wanted to build relationships with these people i was at training with. As the week went on though God just kept having different people come talk to me and God broke down some of those walls. I dont like telling people my problems or about my life out of fear of rejection, i dont like shareing my ideas out of fear of rejection, i dont like doing certan activities out of fear of rejection…I prayed while at training camp that he would release me from all those things that have held me back from things of the past…I hate crying in front of people and it was crazy at training camp that it didnt bother people when i cried at training camp…So anyways up until this morning when I have still struggled with a lot of those things yet when I woke up this morning I was already a few hours into my fast and God was like “Wake Up“ this is a new day…“Wake Up” your are a new person… Today has been an amazing day… Until today I really didnt see any difference in my life. God litterally gave me a Wake Up Call this morning. All my fears, my anger, are gone…I feel fresh, i feel renewed…I just want to say thank you to God for the freedom he has given me. I also want to say thank you to all those of you who talked with me prayed with me, or cried with me at training camp. I also would like to thank all or you who have been in contact with me since and of course thanks to my supporters. God has used all of you to make this renewal of my soul possible…and “V’ squad I love you all more than words can express! I am truely a new creation in christ from this day forward…
