On October 16th, I started off running late almost missed my flight(i will share in a later blog), and very nervous on what was awaiting me at training camp in Georia. If you would have asked me at the begining of the month whether i thought training camp would bring about a change in me I would have told you no, but now i can tell you God is doing amazing things… At training camp God allowed me to truely open up and be myself. To take part in things without fear of rejection, to share my ideas, to trust those who I didnt even know, to gain a new sense of confidense, to experience a freedom never felt before. Training camp caused me to have to surrender myself and my ideas and to think about what my reality is going to be for the rest of my life…to either stay the same or be completely renewed…I was brought to the realization that I dont have to do things on my own…that God wants to fight for me and he does everyday…that God wants me to have family and has definately provided me with one (I love you “V” squad). I can honestly say I have never surrender, or given up so much of me before, I can also say I have never been able to trust, or love like God has allowed me to love these new members of my family…I feel so free it is crazy….So I am here to say I have left my old reality and am living in a new one. A reality where I have an unbelieveable family in which I can love and trust and feel accepted…A reality in which I have an amazing Father(God) who fights for me everyday…A reality where i will no longer allow the things of my past to haunt me… A reality where I know that I am truely free and Alive in Christ who dwells within me…A reality where each day of the rest of my life is spent doing my best to reach people for the KINGDOM!
