Bringing Beauty from Ashes: You saw my heart and made something out of nothing!
A thousand shall fall at thy side and ten thousand at thy right Psalm 91:
Never in a thousand years I would’ve thought that I could be used by God. I always thought that I wasn’t good enough, I wasn’t holy enough to work for His kingdom, I have sinned one too many times. How could a holy God used someone like me? Who have been broken, beaten by lies, crushed by my past, betrayed by close friends and families. How could someone like me be used by God? Someone that was sexually abused, someone who was told as a child that she will never be good enough, that she will never make it in life, that she was worthless, that she wasn’t worth loving, and that she wasn’t beautiful enough. All these lies have replayed in my head time and time again over the years, and boy did the devil had a field day taunting me with these lies. Lies that I once believed to be true, lies that I fed myself for years, lies that had me suicidal, lies that broke me, lies that had me in a very dark place, lies that made life difficult, lies that made me questioned why. Why did God created me to be a failure, why did He make bad things happen to me, why did He place me here only just to suck air and then die. Life didn’t make sense to me, God didn’t make sense…I was so lost and confused.
Here I was in a world that’s full of sin and evil TRYING to figure out what’s my purpose and why. WHY was I created? A question that plagued me for four years, a question that had me going back and forth with who I WANTED to be. At some point in life I wanted to be a Pharmacist, a Nurse and a couple months ago something to do with business…I wasn’t satisfied! Deep down inside I knew that I wanted more, I wanted to change the WORLD! I was hungry for more! Don’t get me wrong all these professions are wonderful but I KNEW there was so much more for ME…Hahaha Glory to God!
All Glory goes to the Father above, all glory to You Papa! Hallelujah! Praise God that I am a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17), that I was once dead in all my sin BUT now I’m alive because of Jesus Christ. He bore all the sin in this world for US, for you and me! That’s GREAT news! He came looking for me, He chased after me to pursue me, to show me how much He LOVES me and how much He has in store for me. Me??… The girl that once thought she wasn’t worthy to be loved, the girl that was bound up with hate, unforgiveness in her heart, the girl that was battling with her identity, the girl that was trying to fit in with the world, the girl that was looking for love in ALL the wrong places, the girl that didn’t know her purpose in life…
BUT now I am a Woman!! I am a Woman of God, I am righteous, I have been set FREE because of Jesus Christ! My Father in heaven sent His only begotten son to save US, YES that’s you and me! I am now a WOMAN that knows her purpose, the purpose that God created ME to fulfill. A woman that’s going to fulfill her purpose in life, and that purpose is sharing the Good News, spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ! I am a Woman that was NOT made to be quiet, I was made to be a bold LIONESS! I was made to conquer and trample the devil under my feet! I was made to have authority and POWER! Jesus gave them to me!
Never will I listen to the devil’s lies again because I know who I am through Christ Jesus! I will not fall for the devil’s stupid tactics and his foolish deceit, because I am a Woman of God that knows the TRUTH! The truth that I was made holy through Jesus, the truth that I am forgiven, The TRUTH that God created me with a beautiful purpose! The truth that Jesus came to save us NOT condemn us! (John 3:16-17) The truth that saved me from eternal hell! GLORY! PRAISE GOD!
